decision made.

as smart as some of you may think that i am (i'm setting myself up here), sometimes i do really dumb things. things i just don't think about. i make assumptions (and we all know what assumptions do). for instance, i assumed midwives were not covered under my insurance. i assumed i would have to pay an arm and a leg to go to a doctor that isn't at mcv. i was wrong. on both accounts. all i had to do was call the insurance company. duh. that being said: we've decided to go with nancy - and are shooting for a home birth. crisis averted, problem solved. Jack and i went to meet with her this morning and it was fantastic. although b/c of where the baby is positioned we still can't hear a heartbeat. well, nancy could but jack and i have no idea what to listen for. we heard the placenta. whatever that sounds like (apparently my heartbeat). so jack is convinced that the whole baby thing is a hoax and i brought home some other lady's ultrasound picture. i think the baby is just messing with him. good baby.
i also went to birth circle tuesday. it is made up of women birthing with nancy, of various due dates (everyone was way further along than me - except for kate who is not pregnant at the moment). people tell their birth stories and ask questions about basically anything. it was nice to hear stories about nancy, and each person had completely different experiences which was interesting to hear. one chick talked about fishing in the birth tub...i can only imagine what that means.
but more importantly lost started last nite. WHEN is the island?! it was pretty spectacular. and it looks like that redhead dies, which is sweet b/c i don't like her. her eyes creep me out. and i can't wait to figure out what miles' deal is. shouldn't he know she's dead? doesn't he talk to ghosts? where'd he get the boar? and i KNEW something was going to happen to frogurt - he was being such a spaz. i was waiting for his head to explode or something, but a flaming arrow through the chest worked well too. who was the lady in the butcher shop? who was the other old lady ben talked to at the end?! i hope charlie comes back like ana lucia b/c i love charlie. they should bring him back from the dead, forget locke. oh lost. welcome back.