dr. d

FINALLY! I have passed my PhD defense. i won't say i've quite finished yet, so it doesn't seem like i'm off the hook b/c i have revisions and a couple things to complete in the lab. BUT i won't ever have to go through another exam/defense/grilling ever again. awesome. i still haven't been able to completely let go with the extras to wrap up. but whatever. i passed. phd. the end.

and to focus on birthing, baby. i'm not nesting yet. i'm not sure if this is just a thing that some people go through or if its truly a sign that its time. i think the fact that my brain is still kind of in "work mode" is preventing me from totally settling into the birth. i'm just waiting for that crazy urge to clean. maybe i'm too lazy to nest. or maybe i've been doing it so much off and on throughout the birth that i got it out early. but either way, truthfully we're almost completely ready for the birth. the co-sleeper(that will actually fit in our room) is on its way, the birth kit is ready (except for a faucet attachment), her clothes are washed and ready to be worn....things left to do:
1. car seat - wash and put in the car
2. nursing bras
3. pacifiers sterilized
4. pump (and accessories) purchase and prepare
5. inflate birth ball
6. clean the house
7. finish up her room
8. wash the dog
i've gotten some really great advice on pumping which is something i was really stressing about. now my worries include:
-what will she wear to sleep in? will she be too cold at nite?
-is she going to have the right number of fingers and toes? will she look slightly retarded like some babies do? and will i not notice it, but everyone else will and they wont want to tell me??
-when can i take her outside? what age can she wear sunblock?
slightly freaking...but trying not to.
I've been sworn off sugar to prevent her from getting huge and making labor difficult. which normally wouldnt phase me, but this pregnancy has made me a sugar fiend - ice cream, cookies, pie, soda. especially soda. so i think i've changed my postpartum meal from pasta to ice cream cake, coke, and some sort of berry pie/turnover. i also really want indian food. i'm going to try to get a india k'raja buffet in before i go into labor. i feel like new cravings are coming on. i'm still on a major cereal kick. so weird. mmmmm..... and with all this, the baby is hiccuping and kicking me to eat something.

i ordered a bunch of wedding photos and am working on getting them framed and put up. but the more i look around, the more wedding photos i notice we have around the house. narcissistic? perhaps, but our wedding was so damn fun. and the pictures are so pretty, i cant bear to just have them in an album that no one sees. now i just have to figure out where to hang everything so its not so overwhelmingly WEDDING around the house. b/c i'm sure it will soon be overwhelmingly BABY around the house.

and if one more person tells me how my life will never be the same again - i'll scream.